My Random Musings

 

I think I now believe in love in first sight. It's not right to feel this happy. Today I popped into the mall to run some errands and return some things that I decided I didn't need, when I saw them: the perfect pair of shoes I absolutely could not live without. Yes, I wavered. i even walked out of the store without trying them on. But I eventually couldn't resist and had to return to try them on, thinking that anything that cute was probably hideously uncomfortable. But no, it was like that shoe was made for my foot; after I put it on I was a complete goner and had to have them. The women sitting in the chair next to me commented, "that is one sexy shoe." I replied, "I know." The funny thing is we started talking and I told her I was starting a new job in DC, hence my excuse for the new shoe splurge, to which she laughed and replied, "I worked in DC when I was your age and loved every minute of it, except we protested and worked our way out of those heels and you young girls are stepping right back into them." Maybe it's true, but when the sales lady rung me up she said, "you really do love those shoes, don't you?" I replied," I really do; have a great day." Her response was, "I know that havng found a pair of shoes you truly love, your sure to have a fabulous day." (P.S. I attached a picture)

 

I was playing around on myspace when I came across this quote, which totally cracked me up, "Women say they have sexual thoughts too. They have no idea. It's the difference between shooting a bullet and throwing it. If they knew what we were really thinking, they'd never stop slapping us."

 

On a sidenote, a friend and I were discussing first kisses, specifically the circumstances that lead up to a first kiss. It seems that if there is alcohol involved, somehow it makes it easier for either party to initiate the kiss and that much more likely to happen but it also somehow makes it less special. Something about it takes a little bit of the magic out of the experience. I don't know that anything will ever happen with my new crush, but if it ever does, I am pretty sure I want to be sober for that first kiss.

 

These days I am a super crappy blogger but I don't even have time to feel guilty about it. See I have 3 weeks to finish my thesis and get it turned into my committee. Then I have 3 weeks from that point before I defend and am finally done, never to complain about grad school ever again. I just don't know how I am actually going to make it to that point. Somehow that isn't enough time to get everything done. The sad part is in my hectic, stressful, mad rush to get it all done, I actually do get blog ideas. I just never manage to get them down before they are pushed right out by more thesis crap.

 

A couple of days ago I recieved a forward from one of my best friends. As I scrolled down to read it, I noticed the chain. The email had been bumped from "the guy" (the one that given another time/place/situation I might be interested in but decided I was better off forgetting) to some other random guy to her and then to me. The funny thing is that I had told her about "the guy" but she didn't know him and had no connection to the situation, except that apparently they have some random mutual friend. Thinking it was funny, I emailed everyone back, which started a whole day long email back-and-forth, mostly consisting of flirtatious, trash-talking banter. So I have now gone from not having his contact info to emailing back and forth with him. Seriously?!?!? Forgetting this guy and keeping him out of my life/mind is not working so well.

 

I read this on a friend's page, and something about it resonated. I don't agree with some of it, but I am feeling alot of it tonight.

 

The Greatest Irony of Love, Author unknown

"The greatest irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right or  finding out you love someone after that person walks out from your life   Sometimes you think you're already over a person but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending  to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again.   Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love, love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much & the other was being loved too little.   We all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right.   Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just for passing time, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger.   Here's a piece of advice: Let go when you're hurting to much. Give up when love isn't enough, & move on when things are not like before. There is someone out there who will love you even more, surely then, you will know true love."